[He shakes his head.]

What...are you sorry for...? I didn't write those for you to feel sorry...

I wanted...I wanted you to know what happened. While the emotions were still fresh but it was...

It was for me too.

I had to believe I'd see you again. I know we take death for granted here but I was going to break the loop and...if I did that...

[He trails off, sighing and dragging a hand down his face.]

I was just...scared.